About Damian Culhane
“Until you make the unconscious, conscious - it will direct your life and you will call it fate”
My journey with unconscious behaviour first started when I was around the age of seven, when I
had my first experience of over-eating/comfort eating. I didn’t know why I was indulging on food -
but it felt good at the time. Following long periods of uncontrollable overeating and addiction to
junk food throughout my adult life, I experienced many low points and often would conceal or
hide my overeating - secretly eating on my own when no one was watching.
On many occasions I had tried to shift my focus and realised I needed to do something to control
my habits and to change my behaviour. Multiple short lived attempts to quit my old habits
resulted in many years of yo-yo dieting. The highs and lows of the emotional eating roller-coaster
were a long term struggle that never really addressed the underlying issues. The believes that I
was not good enough or not capable were causing me sadness and I truly believed I could not
trust others with what I was feeling. I felt weak and disempowered - alone with my thoughts and
suffering in silence.
In 2005, my youngest son was diagnosed with a life limiting muscle wasting disease and that was
a significant downturn for my mental well-being. I was determined to focus on being positive,
whilst battling with long periods of sadness and depression. Being positive and strong on the
outside for everyone else, I never spoke to anyone about my feelings. I was experiencing
negative emotions of anger, guilt, fear, sadness, grief and worry about the future.
My unconscious addictive personality shifted a gear and I was still over-eating junk food, but also
becoming addicted to pornography and sex. This led to making some very poor choices and I
would regularly drink alcohol to excess - passing out from the sheer volume of drink. This pattern
continued for nearly ten years and I was wallowing in self-pity and self-medicating - truly believing
that I did not belong and this was not the life I had planned.
In 2012, shortly after my mother passed away from a short illness, I attended a personal
development workshop and started to have more awareness to how I could rise above my
unconscious mind and shift attention from my ‘body mind’ that had taken over executive
functioning. My body controlled the urges, addictions and cravings - it was almost as if I had no
choice! I was powerless...
In 2015 I threw my energy and attention into a 1,600 km bike ride, to raise money for research into
my sons life limiting condition. I had to kick my poor eating habits and drink less to perform the
physical task. Sadly, on the 3rd day of the event I received news that my father passed away (he
had been poorly for some time and his passing was expected). I went on to complete the
fundraising and was part of the team that raised over £100,000 for research. At my father’s
funeral I realised that I must start living my life, to enjoy the now and to no longer be defined by
I had spent far too long dwelling and wallowing in my long term sadness, making poor
choices and behaving in a dysfunctional way - whilst putting on a brave face to the outside world.
I had spent years sabotaging my life; my career (multiple times in a loop - believing I’m not
capable); sabotaged my relationships (believing I was not worthy of love); sabotaged my success
(believing I was not good enough) and was completely unaware of why or how that had all
happened. Having destroyed my marriage of 24 years, I took a deep dive emotionally and became
addicted to my feelings of guilt and sadness - reaching an emotional dead end. Thankfully I
somehow knew I needed a new direction. I was now curious to explore my consciousness to
discover what is below the surface of my sabotaging patterns. When I tapped into the highest
level of consciousness, I learnt that my pattern of sabotaging choices and behaviour were a direct
result of my beliefs - which I made up from the age of 0-4 years (possibly 0-7 years, depending on
which philosopher or psychologist you prefer).
Having the awareness to know the motivation and purpose of my unconscious sabotage AND
having the mental will power to focus on what I want to create, has given me access to a
completely new connection to my purpose in life. I am now focused on teaching transformational
thinking and in January 2018 founded a pioneering community interest company, supporting
people living with Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy (DMD) - transforming their high rates of mental
health problems. My mission is to wipeout the negative impact DMD has on people, so they are
no longer defined by that condition and empower them to ‘Rise Up’ and create lives worth living.